I am embarrassed to tell this story because I talk about conquering feared. This time… I let fear conquer me….
I stopped at a Kansas gas station to get something…. obviously gas… There was a large dragonfly on the gas handle. As the wind was blowing against the dragonfly, I saw its disgusting wings and felt a tingle of horror creep up on me. I was so fearful and scared of insects growing up and that fear carried with me to my adult life.
Instead of taking my shoes and flapping the insect off, I went into the gas station and talked to the store owner. I asked him to come outside with me. Trying to fake my confidence, I said ” there’s an insect on the gas handle, is it dangerous?” He laughed at me and flapped the insect off with his hands. I knew the dragonfly was obviously harmless but I was scared and used the word “dangerous” as a prefix to save myself from embarrassment. I am disappointed in letting that fear take me over. What did I do wrong? I pussied out and shouldn’t have. Next time, I will not. This embarrassing moment will be entrenched in my mind forever.